Okay, so I've got to update this place!

It's been about 8 months since I posted here, mainly because I decided to publish some of my website articles, etc. between covers (and add new items, graphics, etc.). This resulted in a book titled "A Planetary Sojourn" (cover on my website at -- which you may have already visited.
A quick overview of recent events should include Eric Christensen's launch of his excellent Trips Festival documentary and his interview on David Gans' 'Dead to the World' on KPFA-FM.
Also launched in June was U.C.Press's history of our composers/artists' collaborative from the early sixties titled "The San Francisco Tape Music Center: 1960s Counterculture and The Avant-Garde" bundled with a DVD of some of the best sound-light-instrumental pieces of that era. We had an overflow crowd for the launch at the Haight-Ashbury branch of the public library - lots of fun and I think the event was video'd by the Center for Contemporary Music folks (the 'daughter' of our parent group, alive and well at Mills College).
Again, here's an interview with the book's editor and various culprits on Dean Suzuki's Discreet Music (Emergency Circus) KPFA-FM show.
If that wasn't enough, along came Alastair Gordon's amazing 300-page all-color coffee-table book titled "Spaced Out: Crash Pads, Hippie Communes, Infinity Machines And Other Radical Environments Of The Psychedelic Sixties" that devotes a dozen or so pages to our rural open-gate ranches, photos and history that I've archived here.
Whew?
Alastair and friends opened a "Spaced Out" blog on MySpace, and linked it to one that generously outs me as some sort of explorer of alternate realities. Okay, there may be some truth to their views, but really-truly all I did was -- well, what was it -- and still is it -- anyway? Wanna tell the hairy accordion player?'
Speaking of music, my CD publisher Locust Music also has a MySpace blog for me that plays samples of some of my sixties' electronic pieces.
Having buffed my nails to a high gloss on my non-existent lapels, I'll sign off for now but promise to return soon with other recent hair-raising adventures and insightful mullings about just how we can achieve a massive planetary bliss-out for all beings before we go the way of the dinosaurs and let the raccoons take a turn at creating a paradise planet.
As Always, wishing your illusory self-refreshing pristine awareness embodiment/ emanation a festive absorption into the light while still planetside. And if you're already absorbed, wishing you a double-scoop of your favorite flavor. I'm having mine today on an amrita cone! Why scramble for crumbs if you can sit at the table with all the buddhas and bodhisattvas, purring and swishing your tail in delight?

"One of my teachers used to say, once you have turned towards
the light, it doesn't really matter how far away it seems as
long as you keep your eye on it."

from Stephen Levine, bless him.

Enough-ing and Stephen & Ondrea Levine

Here's something that I thought might be of interest. It's from from
Stephen Levine's book "A Year to Live: How to Live This Year as If It
Were Your Last." Stephen worked with hospice patients for many years
and wrote a number of excellent books from the Buddhist perspective,
including "Who Dies?" and "Turning Toward The Mystery." "Turning"
has become one of my all-time favorite books since I discovered it last
October.
I never have met Stephen and his wife Ondrea, although they taught
meditation in the Bay Area for many years. These days I gather they're
living in seclusion, and I recently heard that Ondrea's cancer has
returned and Stephen's not in the best of health himself. Many of the
thousands of people they've helped over the years are rallying to their
assistance.
I learned about their situation here.

In the chapter about how so many in hospice lament about how they
feel their lives have been a failure, there was this (slightedly edited)
quote:
-=-=-=-=-=-=
One fellow with cancer spoke how... right on the other side of his
feelings of 'not-enoughness' was a remarkable insight: he saw the
value of not being able to satisfy his desires. It caused him to discover,
like the Buddha, the cause of all his suffering. It was not only the
impossibility of satisfying every desire, much less keeping it that
way; it was not because of not getting this or that or losing it the next day.

The cause of suffering was desire itself.

He saw that it was not in the attained object of desire that satisfaction resided, but in the absence of desire. He mentioned that when he received something he wanted, he noticed a momentary spiking of pleasure and the experience we call 'satisfaction.' But to his surprise, the satisfaction did not come from the 'having that something,' but because the light of his innate nature was for a moment no longer obstructed by a mind full of desire.

HERE'S THE SENTENCE MOST INTERESTING TO ME:
It was the absence of desire that offered that feeling of satisfaction, of
temporary completeness, not the getting of the thing desired.

The very nature of desire is one of dissatisfaction with any moment in
which the object of desire is not present. Desire lives more in the future than in the present. It has a quality of longing rather than being. He saw that the mind was doomed to feel something of a failure if it did not comprehend that it is unfulfilled desire itself which, like a hungry ghost, always calls out for more.

This recognition of the painful nature of desire did not make him
desireless, but allowed him to treat desire with new respect. He said
that he did not even care if his 'lotus ever bloomed' (metaphor used
earlier for enlightenment) now that he had found it. This reminded me that
one of my teachers used to say, once you have turned towards the
light, it doesn't really matter how far away it seems as long as you
keep your eye on it.
-=-=-=-=-=
Ramon:
Okay, so at first glance the phrase "The cause of suffering is desire itself"
may not seem a new thought. But put in the context above it aquired for
me a real depth. Looking at the context again:

The momentary desirelessness triggered by receiving the object of desire and not the actual object received was the source of his feeling of fulfillment.
Which of course turned me towards cultivating desirelessness directly ("I am enough, I have enough, I have experienced enough, I have done enough, I have lived enough, etc.) which I now call 'Enough-ing." In other words, the momentary desirelessness triggered by receiving the object of desire and not the object received was the source of his feeling of fulfillment. Which of course turned me towards cultivating desirelessness directly ("I am enough, I have enough, I have experienced enough, I have done enough, I have lived enough, etc.) which I now call 'Enough-ing."

Of course Enough-ing is also the antidote for that most common
illness in our First World consumer culture called "Affluenza." There's a
documentary of that title, along with its sequel "Escape from
Affluenza," which we've shown on our Monday night series.

Wishing you and all beings ENOUGH already!

Happy Happies!

Here's a belated posting of something I emailed some friends:

Happy Winter Solstice, everyone! The origin of present-giving this time of
year (in my imaginings) goes as follows: “The sun is disappearing! The sun is disappearing! It’s being stolen by an evil magician! Quick! Give presents to everyone in the hopes that one of them is responsible and will change their mind!”

Originally I think a young virgin was thrown into a volcano. The Old
Testament taught us to substitute an animal as a burnt offering. The New Testament taught that, inasmuch as God had sacrificed himself to himself, no more
burnt offerings were necessary. As an animal lover, that’s a relief! Now if we only could get rid of feed lots and devouring flesh via the invention of nanotechnology’s protein replicators.

Actually God is the REAL burnt offering as She continues to burn out of love and
compassion to keep us living creatures here on Gaia growing and de-lighted!

I also imagine that we come first to this planet as humans. If we prove at the very
least harmless to the life form (better yet, nurturing and loving), we then have the
freedom to come back ‘within the Garden’ as anything we want — a humming bird, a dolphin, a redwood tree — over and over! But if are destructive and mean as humans, we have to keep coming back as humans until we awaken. I think someone like Donald Trump, when he departs, will look back at his life and say, “Oh dear, I truly oinked it up at the trough in a very greedy manner! I should return as a starving beggar in Calcutta a few dozen times to balance things up.”

This puts me somewhat at odds with most reincarnation believers, who tend
towards the idea that if we do poorly as humans, we come back as dogs (how insulting
to the ever-loving canine species!). My wonderful American mother Julia said
she wanted to come back as a lapdog in a good family. As someone who more than
fulfilled the role of a caring and compassionate human, I’m sure she received her wish. Woof! Woof! “Hi, Mom!”

The Garden, which we are so busily attempting to destroy, really does exist. I call it ‘The Gaian Life Form’ because I believe it’s a single consciousness shared by all species — except humans, whose self-reflective awareness slows us down a half-second out of the Present Moment that is shared by all others.

Anyway, I’ll take Dave’s good advice, fold up my soapbox (fits nicely in my saddle bag) and canter off into the sunset... “Hi yo, Rocinante! Awayyyy!”

“Just who was that man in the Groucho Marx glasses and mustache?”

Wishing all beings everywhere freedom from suffering in the New Year.


“Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.” The Buddha Shakyamuni

Where's I Been?

Just in case there are regular readers who wonder where th' petunias I've been, I ran into some weird glitches in the archived postings - links linking to nowhere - and got discouraged after correcting a half-dozen. Also, ahem, I've swept a lot of my website short pieces into a book titled 'A PLANETARY SOJOURN' that I'm publishing soon - more about that when it happens, although I'm quite pleased with the cover - and the feedback I've received from a few readers of the uncorrected proofs.
I was going to include some of the postings from this blog, but the book already was almost 350 pages long, which is long enough. So now I'll start a SECOND collection that I'm titling "NON-DUAL IN THE SUN." More about that ditto.
In the meanbetimes, I'll honk my horn a little more by a link to David Gan's Grateful Dead radio show where he interviews documentary filmmaker Eric Christensen about his "The Trips Festival." The film covers the historic January 1966 weekend blow-out that took the Merry Pranksters Acid Test format into a three-night expansion -- and also unintentionally ushered in the Hippie Era. I was privileged to participate.
Wishing all illusory pristine awareness embodiments a festive absorption into the light!
And don't forget to celebrate Perihelion, this year on January 3 - high noon for us Pacific Standard Timers. We're 5 million km closer to the sun if measured from the opposite end of Mother Gaia's twirl.

Sun-Sun-Sun!

For me, the 'whispered teaching' is: "the radiant star in the center of
our blue sky is THAT." Our PHAT THAT, so to speak.

Matter and spirit are a unity, notes on the same scale, or as Ram Dass
once said, "We're all just slowed-down light."

So when I read wonderful quotes such as

The Koranic verse, "God is the Light of the heavens and
the earth" (XXIV: 35), has been interpreted by the traditional
Islamic clergy to mean that God is the source of all
illumination for the heavens and the earth. The Sufis, on the
other hand, take this to mean that God is the very being, the
reality of the heavens and the earth.

This gives me a wonderful laugh, because all these deep thinkers and
vibrational ecstatics of course are right on, but just don't see what's
literally staring them in their kissers. Of course if you live in a
high-sun environs where literally there's nothing but blazing sun
all day every day, it becomes important - a necessity - to shade
yourself from the Presence, but with it you also lose the basic
Understanding. Too bad our bodies are so fragile. We have to create
shade and ornamental rose windows to filter the View.

Dedicated sun yogis like temperate climes - coastal foggy areas
that draw veils across the Divine Face in a rapturous peek-a-boo,
and of course those incredible aboreal temples... forest glades and glens.

The insight that there is only one Absolute Being in the
whole universe, and that whatever exists does so through
His existence, has been called the philosophy of the "Unity
of Being" (wahdato'l-wojud).

Of course, what did you expect? And the Big Bang was Absolute Being
seeding Herself through all space and time. Aditi! Great-to-the-tenth-
power GrandmaHattie!

Bringing it down to our galactic neighborhood (reality was designed for
the naked eye, not for fancy telescopes) Absolute Being manifests locally
as our star, which of course also shines from the innermost chamber of
our heart (that sings 'Al-lah-lah-lah' every second). As without, so
within... as above, so below.

To be more precise, however, this is not a philosophy
at all. A philosophy is something invented by the mind and
hence subject to change. The awareness of the Unity of Being,
though, is a perception of the heart and consequently ever-
lasting and unchanging.

The good old human penchant for abstract thought has caused a lot of
trouble. You can learn Solar Awareness from almost any other species,
cows for instance. No thought required! And I love the way the birds
follow the sun over the horizon by climbing higher and higher into
the treetops to sing one last loving goodnight to the light...
So wise!

In the words of Shah Nimatullah:
"Throughout the world
and everything within it,
Whatever is seen is but a reflection of a ray
from the Face of the Friend."

Mitra = Sun's name as 'Friend' in Sanskrit...

And repeating that earlier quote from Zajonc's "Catching the Light; The
Entwined History of Light and Mind:"
"Light itself is always invisible. We see only things, only objects, not
light."

Hm, wonder why that's true, hm, hm... (ha-ha-ha!) Maybe that's how
Yahweh became the 'invisible God...'

(Apologies for these ramblings... but just had to say a few words.)
Rigpa = realizing I am the sunlight in this body...? YUM!

Adam W's Suggestion - And an Aziz Quote

"Adam W" wrote on the Way-of-Light list:

I have come demonstrate to myself, that all we need to do is
absorb ourselves in awareness - which takes two things:
(1) Time and therefore patience.
(2) Discipline to maintain single pointed focus of relaxed
attention in one's own awareness.

Ramon: Absolutely! It makes me wonder if perhaps now is the time to strip
away all traditional/cultural trappings (non-English terms, etc.) from
the basic teaching and put it in concise, vanilla-modern terminology that
anyone can understand. Of course that's what J-P and others here have
been doing... but hey -- what about dumping anything but the most essential?
Awareness of awareness does it for me very well... although there
definitely are levels - awareness-of-awareness-of-awareness? I think
almost all teachings must end up here, yes? For example, here is Master
Aziz's description of the various levels, edited for conciseness:

1. State of Presence
This state represents the awakening of Awareness, which
gives birth to the permanent sense of I Am within the mind.
2. Being
...The experience of Being is an energetic expansion into the
vertical reality of the Now. . . [and is] felt all-over the body
(does not include the Heart if it is not activated) but the main
direction of energy is downwards towards the hara and beyond.
3. Absolute State
In this profound realization the Soul moves fully to the State
of unbroken Rest. . . . We have to notice, however, that in the
Absolute State the mind and consciousness of the Soul have not
yet merged with the Source. At this stage of realization one
experiences the unity with Reality only within the Being
aspect of I Am.
4. Awakening of the Heart
This significant level of awakening opens the door to the
Divine Dimension. The Heart is the realm of the Soul, the
Beloved, Love and Grace. . . . However, the deeper and true
awakening of the Heart requires the Purification of Intention
and realization of the Soul.
5. Transparent Me
. . .The awakening of the Soul takes place in the Heart but it
needs to deepen through further merging with the whole of the
Inner State. The shift to Transparent Me gives birth to a very
holistic experience of oneself and represents awakening to
pure subjective existence of the Soul.
6. State Beyond Polarities
. . .Here one moves beyond polarities of the Inner and the
Outer, the Here and the Now. The State Beyond Polarities
represents a radical integration between Awareness, Heart
and Being, where all the three aspects of I Am merge into
One State. Through this integration a deeper absorption into
the Beyond takes place. The State Beyond Polarities is an in-
between state - between Presence and Absence - as one has not
yet fully moved to the Other Side.
7. Transcendental State or The Second Absolute
In the First Absolute, the Soul reached the unconditional
absorption into the Beyond, through the gateway of Being.
However, her consciousness still remains outside the Absolute.
In the Transcendental State, it is the Consciousness of the
Soul, her I Am in the Mind, which shifts to the Beyond. The
Mind, the Ego and the sense of separate identity are being
uprooted, so the Soul, as a Pure Me, can fully move with the
whole of herself into the Divine Realm. Entering the Tran-
scendental State, which is the realm of Absence, is a begin-
ning of a very complex process of dissolution of the Ego
and the Subconscious Mind. For the completion of this
process, the Me needs to fully surrender its existence to
the Beyond.
The end result is Complete Soul Awakening. The Soul returns
to its Original State and all the links with the human mind
become severed. This is what is called Liberation. Liberation
is not reached by negation of our human existence but through
The Realization of the Soul.
. . .
Ending of Karma, Purification and healing are essential in
order to release the burden of the past. They do accompany
all the way the process of inner awakening. For healing to
take place, one has to be in touch with the light, of the Soul
and open to the dimension of Grace. Everything that stands on
the way of our completion has to be gradually removed,
transformed and transcended. Spiritual Path should not be
seen as an escape from earthly challenges and difficulties
of human life. It is through becoming a real and fully
conscious human being that we can face these challenges and
transform all difficulties. Only from that place we can truly
move beyond our human identity and finally transcend earthly
existence.

Although Aziz currently is in seclusion and his website closed, this site
gives a brief overview and links to his books:

Of course 'terms' and 'descriptions' of the indescribable will vary...
Speaking for this particular illusory self-refreshing pristine
awareness embodiment/ emanation, I find 'personally' that:
1. just dropping into a lightly held awareness of awareness
2. utilizing a 'voluntary' blink to detach from any thought stream
3. smiling to keep the endorphins bubbling, and
4. resonating the sleep breath to stay within the heart
is really all I need!!!
Er, with an occasional self-arising tongue-tip held firmly between
the teeth while I suck on my uvula. It's sort of like the threading-
a-needle focused expression. But then, once on that other shore, one
dumps the boat and... Everything furthers!
Thanks again, Adam!

Fixation And A Number Of Good Quotes

Playing catch-up with recent postings:

R quoted Rinpoche:
"It is much better to sit next to Indra and eat happily..."
Ramon: - and pass the amrita, please!

J-P quotes Abhinavagupta:

Concentration and calming the mind. If this meditation
is difficult, take a simple object like a stone or a piece of wood,
place it in front of you, gently focus on the object without
blinking, allow nothing else to take hold of your mind.

There's that 'without blinking' suggestion again. Not blinking sure stirs
up the solar plexus energies! And smiling widely while doing so allows
tearing to continue to bathe the corneas. (Of course I'm 'doing something'
again, but perhaps 'staring as if in amazement' is self-arising?)

Referencing J-P's Vijñânabhairava Tantra quotes, I was overjoyed some
years ago to find one of my favorite self-discoveries (nursing on the
uvula/soft palate) listed there, (right next to the 'not-blinking
suggestion again):

LIE DOWN AS DEAD. ENRAGED IN WRATH, STAY SO. OR
STARE WITHOUT MOVING AN EYELASH. OR SUCK SOMETHING AND
BECOME THE SUCKING.

Also in "Zen Flesh Zen Bones," and also published by Rajneesh

52.
A. Lie down as dead. Enraged in wrath, stay so.
B. Or stare without moving an eyelash.
C. Or suck something and become the sucking.

-=-=-=
As for item "A" above, it makes me think of Ramana's teenage experience.
Except the 'enraged in wrath' I don't understand, unless this has to do
with frowning fiercely while stiffening the body in a rigor-like state.
Hm, trying it right now, I sense an 8-pulses-per-second visual strobe
effect.

I enjoy little mnemonic devices, such as the tip of the tongue held
between the teeth. Also, sometimes nothing's happening in my mind
except a random melody, and melodies seem to dissolve other thoughts,
yes?

I also like Alan Wallace's 'Awareness in Empty Space' exercise:

"Imagine yourself as a child lying on your back, gazing up into
a cloudless sky, and blowing soap bubbles through a plastic
ring. As a bubble drifts up into the sky, you watch it rise,
and this brings your attention to the sky. While you are
looking at the bubble, it pops, and you keep your attention
right where the bubble had been. Your awareness now lies in
empty space."

B. Alan Wallace, "Tibetan Buddhism From the Ground Up"
Copyright Wisdom Publications 2001. Reprinted from "Daily Wisdom: 365
Buddhist Inspirations," edited by Josh Bartok

I've also been enjoyng Arthur Zajonc's "Catching the Light; The Entwined
History of Light and Mind" Oxford Univ Press, 1993 A quote that I found
of interest because I'd never thought of it before:
"Light itself is always invisible. We see only things, only objects, not
light."

Perhaps we cannot 'see' light in the same way that we cannot see our
buddha nature? Perhaps light IS awareness? Quoting from an 'R' posting:

The sambhogakaya is that dimension in which the
potentialities of sound, light, and rays the three fundamental
sources of manifestation, appear as the pure vision of the
mandala, the origin of the tantric teachings.

Hm, why are 'light' and 'rays' listed separately? And sound? My
happy inner melodies?

A Great Evening at New College, Santa Rosa

Hallo, faithful reader! I seem destined to update this blog once a month,
but then in more than one posting. Here goes with a backlog of good items:

On March 24th at New College North (Santa Rosa) Arty Kopecky, New Buffalo's archivist, produced a fundraiser for the Green Valley Village community.

Delia Moon was great, as always, and got the audience to sing the chorus
of 'The Wheels Of Change,'composed by Josh at Wheeler's in 1969 or so.
She also talked about how she came to start another community -- a real,
open-hearted sister!

Kei and Michael from Green Valley Village, and Deirdre from Avalon
Springs both spoke about their new communities. James from Oxy's Art &
Ecology Center described their educational program.

Arty Kopecky did a great job of mc-ing the whole business and keeping
things rolling. Later Nick and Tanya Alva sang songs from the woork-in-
progress Morningstar Musical, including my own "Oh Friends, Tell Me Why..."
that I wrote in 1966 after a group LSD trip (after a 10-day brown rice
diet). They're forging ahead with plans for producing the show...

FLASH! May, 2007, at the Spreckles Performing Arts Center in Rohnert Park. Save one of these dates: Opening night Sat. May 3rd, additional performances May 4th, 9th, 11th, 16th and 18th

All I can remember talking about was my 1968 epiphany when I realized
humans were invented by trees as portable fertilizer factories (along
with other creatures). What a great moment! I no longer had to search
for meaning in my life, for what my task was in the Kosmos!

"At least once in your lifetime, fulfill your true destiny! Go
fertilize a tree," I told everyone. And I quoted a dear friend who said
'Shitting in your house is so barbaric.' Actually gorillas do shit in
their nest, but have the good sense to build a new one every night.

Hm, found some scribbled notes...

Morningstar Ranch was in a sense 'burdened' by belonging to the Divine
Mother, and thus having to function as a 'mothering' healing center open
to anyone -- which is why we were basically overrun. The previous owner,
poet and activist John Beecher, via the Catholic Church, had dedicated
the land to The Virgin Mary, something we didn't find out until the mid-
Seventies. But it did explain why people kept having visions of the Goddess
at Morningstar, both on and off psychedelics.

'Village' is in our DNA. Humans are try-out applicants for the Garden of
Gaia. If they're loving and caring - or at least harmless - they can
reincarnate as a butterfly, a dolphin, a redwood for as long and as
often as they wish. Otherwise, it's just back to yet another half-second
delayed, self-reflective human time around to 'get it right.

If you want to start a community, buy a cow -- or a goat. Then the
four-footed being calls the meetings. If I called a meeting at the
ranches, someone always would say, "And just exactly WHO elected
You God?" or something like that. But if you wanted milk for your
morning coffee at Wheeler's, you showed up for morning milking.
And during the general chat around the cow's rear end, various
topics of general interest would be discussed.

IN 1968 I said we were 20 years ahead of our time but now, 40
years later, I read in the March 22 Home and Garden section of
the N Y Times that a couple living in lower Manhattan are trying
to live by eating only food grown within a 200-mile radius, not
using toilet paper or paper products, not using elevators, making
their own whatever they can make, etc. So the 'low imprint'
lifestyle (that I named 'Voluntary Primitivism') has finally made
it to the Big Apple, but it took twice as long as estimated.

'Paths' are just worn-out spots in the meadows made by animals
afraid of what might be lurking behind the next tree or rock. Paths
wear down the landscape. Better to forget your paranoia and just
strike out cross-country. Leave no tracks!

Finally, I quoted Suzuki Roshi: 'Everything is perfect as it is, but
there's always room for improvement."

Various Books

Regarding Dzogchen texts, there are two books I like a lot –
Longchenpa’s “You Are The Eyes Of The World” (Snow Lion Press,
translated by Lipman and Peterson) and “The Supreme Source: The
Fundamental Tantra of the Dzogchen Semde” by Kunjed Gyalpo
(Snow Lion Press, translated by Chogyal Namkhal Norbu and Adriano
Clemente).
I just finished two books – Lynne McTaggart’s (“The Field”) most
recent “The Intention Experiment: Using Your Thoughts to Change Your
Life and the World.” In my opinion, McTaggart is too commercial in
her approach to this stuff, but the results of various double-blind experiments that she reports -- about how positive thinking, healing
at a distance, etc., work -- are fascinating. “Intention” is a current
buzz word, what with ‘The Secret’ film, Wayne Dyer and other motivational types on Public TV.
The most recent book I read, “Science and the Akashic Field” by
Ervin Laszlo, is more profound, (Inner Traditions, 2004) and his
Integral Theory of Everything comes very close to my own thoughts.
Laszlo is a heavy-hitter in philosophy, systems theory and future studies. .

On another topic, I’m beginning to get some interesting responses from Thwizzler beta-testers, including this one posted on a Yahoo list:

I am writing this with hope that you will do yourself a
favor and contact Ramon to test drive a pair of his
Thwizzlers!I was amused when opening the package a couple
of weeks ago to find this amazing product inside. What a
great stress reliever!
I have experimented with his invention and have discovered
a marked decrease in my blood pressure even after only 5
minutes of use. I was very excited with this result as I
have a very high BP that has been hard to control.
I have also noted that this exercise improves relaxation/
pleasure sensitivity... I am certain that we can all use a
little more joy in our lives. Ramon's invention can help
you re-train those senses we have unfortunately been taught
to suppress.

My offer to mail a beta-test pair of Thwizzlers to anyone
in the continental USA for free is still open.

J-L wrote (on the Yahoo DzogchenPractices list regarding the
etymology of Trekcho:

Basically Khregs refers to'rigidity' or hardness, and chod
pa means 'to cut', 'to eradicate'. It is short for Khregs-
se chod-pa, which indicates both a process and a state,
meaning 'Eradication of the Rigidity'. You can put whatever
you want under Rigidity: ego-grasping, mental elaboration,
passions, ignorance, etc.

Comment:
J-L, first of all many thanks for your efforts to shed light on
some of these amazing practices. Your quote re: “Eradication of
Rigidity” reminded me of something I thought about once regarding
the saintly Ramana Maharshi’s teenage decision to find out what
it was to die. I realized that, as a Hindu, he had more familiarity
with dead bodies than we have in our so-called ‘advanced’ countries,
and would have understood how a body stiffens into rigor mortis.
Thus his attempt to duplicate death would have included the
stiffening of all his muscles. I recently found verification of
this in a quote from his description of the event as follows.
Various versions can be found on line.

The shock of the fear of death drove my mind inward and I
said to myself mentally, without actually framing the words,
'Now death has come; what does it mean? What is it that is
dying?... This body dies.'
I at once dramatized the occurrence of death. I lay with my
limbs stretched out stiff, as though 'rigor mortis' had set
in and imitated a corpse so as to give greater reality to
the inquiry. I held my breath and kept my lips tightly closed
so that no sound could escape, so that neither the word 'I'
nor any other word could be uttered.
'Well then,' I said to myself, 'this body is dead. It will
be carried stiff to the burning ground and there burnt and
reduced to ashes. But with the death of this body am I dead?
Is this body I? It is silent and inert but I feel the full
force of my personality, and even the voice of "I" within me,
apart from it. So I am Spirit, transcending the body. The body
dies, but the Spirit that transcends it cannot be touched by
death. That means I am the deathless Spirit.'
All this was not dull thought; [rather] it flashed through me
vividly as living truth which I perceived directly, almost
without thought-process. 'I' was something very real, the only
real thing about my present state, and all the conscious
activity connected with my body was centered on that 'I'.
From that moment onward, the 'I' or Self focused attention on
itself by a powerful fascination. Fear of death had vanished,
once and for all. Absorption in the Self continued unbroken
from that time on.

Comment:
Rigidity, concentration, fixation – all these words point me towards
an application of the will that seems necessary first of all before
one can relax and still retain ‘focus,’ as it were. This topic came
up earlier in DzogchenPractices in the discussion on Zhine and the
need to fix the gaze without blinking on the meditation object. This
comes up of course in Patanjali’s ‘tratak’ exercise as well as in
some Theravada Buddhist exercises involving fixation on a ‘kasina,’
more or less a mandala, until the afterimage is burned into one’s
awareness. It seems to me that Dzogchen’s “relaxation” and Trekcho’s “relaxation of rigidity” implies a previous state of intense applica-
tion of the will to develop one-pointedness to a permanent stage –
after which the ‘relaxation of rigidity’ makes great sense, but not
before. Thank you again! Very helpful!

The Five Pathways That Light Enters The Body

So J-P(on the Yahoo list DzogchenPractices) points to the Highest
Teaching (sudden) but doesn’t offer any easy way to get there. J-L
offers multlifold graduated steps to the View, but warns that the
highest stages are unattainable unless one finds a teacher and
preferably goes into seclusion.

Meanwhile, just smiling and blinking trigger for me an outpouring
of ecstatic bliss that is quite fulfilling, thank you very much!
And I suppose, over time, I will learn just to allow thoughts to
evaporate on their own without my needing temporary support (blinks)
to sneak between them to those light-filled realms. But meanwhile...
YUM! (smile)

J-L writes:

... inside the physical eyes opens the upper extremity of
the Kati channel connecting the pupils to the center
of the heart. It is within this channel that the glow
of Awareness (the visions of Clear-Light) arises. To
make things easy, this channel is designated as the
channel of light (?od kyi rtsa).

Question:
whenever I meditate (gaze) on the sun, my heartbeat increases
considerably and an intense bliss arises. Is this because of
the Kati channel's connection to the heart center?

J-L continues:

Now, some texts say that there are four or five channels of light...

Comment:
By coincidence, the text below on color therapy and holistic healing
also discusses five pathways by which light enters the body:
“The Neurophysiology of Light- The Five Pathways” by Dietrich Klinghardt (1995)
in which the author describes as follows (briefly excerpted from the
only two chapters translated from the German):

The Neurophysiology of Light: the Five Pathways
1. The optic nerve travels from the retina, past the
pituitary gland via the temporal lobe to the occipital
lobe of the brain. This part of the visual system
is dedicated to informing the conscious part of our
brain of our surroundings.
2. An additional nerve bundle is leading directly from
the retina to the hypothalamus (retino-hypothalamic tract).
This explains the above mentioned strictly physiological
effect of color on the ANS (Autonomic Nervous System):
3.A side-branch of this nerve tract reaches the amygdala
directly, bypassing the hypothalamus. The two corpora
amygdaloidea are truly the color sensitive area of
the limbic system and highly responsive to the color the
eyes are exposed to. A study demonstrated that each mono-
chromatic color frequency excites specific neurons. If
adjacent, but dissimilar color-wavelengths are used, the
same neuron stays unexcited. Each frequency in the
color spectrum therefore has its own specific neurological
and psychological effect. ... The profound effect of light
stimulation to the retina on the body’s metabolism has
long been established through the work of the brilliant
German ophthalmologist Fritz Hollwich, M.D.,Ph.D.
4. A fourth nerve connection from the retina follows the
lower optic tract, which is not used for vision, and
reaches the transpeduncular nucleus in the midbrain. This
nucleus is also light and color sensitive. From here the
signal travels via the superior cervical ganglion back via
the brainstem to the pineal gland. This pathway is –
amongst other less understood functions – responsible for
the circadian day-night rhythm and the melatonin production
in the pineal gland when it gets dark. This pathway has
been given much attention lately in research concerning
the treatment of seasonal affective disorder. Via secondary
interneurons all of these pathways are connected with each
other and virtually each area of the brain.
5. A fifth, and maybe most exciting way in which color
finds it’s way inside the body, i.e. the subconscious mind,
the immune system, the limbic system, the nervous system,
etc. - has only recently been discovered. There are more
and more scientific hints that light can charge particles
that travel in the lymph and blood as well as axonally inside
the nerves. Researchers at the University of Vienna, Austria,
found that albumin is one of the proteins able to be charged
by colored light – and able to deliver this charge to tissues
far away from the site of exposure. Through the outer layer
of the skin light also affects pigments, fluorescent particles
in the body fluids and inside the cells which travel in the
blood and lymph. After being energized - in a color-wave-
length and frequency-specific way - they are transported to
their target sites where the light-energy is discharged. These
light-discharges have an organizing and activating effect on
cellular organelles and the cell metabolism in the target
tissue (such as the brain or inner organs). ... The German
scientist Fritz Albert Popp PhD confirmed the prior research
of Russian scientists, and published many of his own papers,
on the fact that all cells in an organism use subtle light
emissions to communicate with each other constantly. Cells
gossip, inform, celebrate and grieve. Only cancer cells
behave differently: they do not emit light. Recent research
in stem cell therapy brought to light another astounding
phenomenon: when cells are ill or in distress, they also give
off “microscopic” sound signals. If the sound of a group
of dying cells is artificially amplified, it sounds like a
group of weeping and grieving women. Injected stem cells
(from embryonic umbilical chords) follow this signal and settle
in the area to lend their support.
Stem cells are compassionate. Cells care for each other.

At the risk of repeating myself...

jax wrote on the Yahoo DozgchenPractices list::

Now I recommend you have faith in what I have presented
and the Way as taught in the Sudden School of Chan and
demonstrate devotion to the task of cutting-off all concepts
and beliefs of every kind in just this very moment! If not
now when? But remember when the time happens for you it
will be in that current moment of now... so why wait, the
future now is identical to this now... get it?

Comment:
At the risk of repeating what I just wrote in another reply, blinks
(already a self-arising phenomenon) cut off all conceptualizing for
a brief instant.Why not blink voluntarily twenty times in a row and
see what happens?

Of all the various usages I’ve been investigating (resonating the
trachea as if in deep sleep, smiling, revitalizing the facial nerves
with the Thwizzler, subvocally ‘Ah-ing’ on both inhale and exhale,
unblinking eye fixation, flaring the nostrils on the inhale)
blinking seems the most useful because it can be done anywhere with-
out drawing undue attention (unless face-to-face with the boss).
For the latter moments, it may be wise to move southward and just concentrate on the undulation of the anal sphincter while breathing.
which expands out on the inhale and draws in and up on the exhale.
I learned this from observing my dog’s rear end when he barks.
Teachers come in all shapes and sizes!

(Blinking on my heartbeat as I write this – ahhhhh!)

Centipede's Dilemma - Which Leg To Wiggle First?

J-L wrote on the DozgchenPractices Yahoo list:

Again in this perspective, Dzogchen is truly a unique Path
but as you see, the real cursus or curriculum encompasses
the practices of Sutras and Tantras. That´s how Tibetans
are trained and that´s why they reach some signs, realiza-
tions and accomplishments. And that´s probably because
they don´t approach the Path in this way that many
westerners mistake Dzogchen and Dzogchenpas ...

Comment:
Let’s recap J-L’s full posting:
We start first with good motivation, then reflections on the 4
thoughts leading to actual renunciation of samsaric existence,
then the extraordinary preliminaries leading to purification of
the 3 doors, and only then can Calm Abiding lead to control of
the mind. Once Calm Abiding has been perfected in all its 9
stages [jhanas?], Superior Insight leads to the No-self and the
emptiness experience. Only then will the Generation Stage lead
to siddhis, which can then take us to the Perfection Phase leading
to experiences of Bliss, Clarity and Non-discursiveness (all non-
regressive). Only by achieving all the above-mentioned will the
outer and inner Rushen lead to the distinguishing of mind (sems)
from Mind (nyid). Once the Rushen have been accomplished, then
the Training of the Three Doors can induce the natural ease of the primordial state and lead to stability in Trekcho which, once
stable, can develop into The Four Vision of Thogel. And only
in the ultimate stage of the Four Visions of Thogel can one attain
The Rainbow Body.

Well, all this is truly fascinating, and I am very grateful to
J-L for his input, but it makes Dzogchen’s ultimate stages sound
almost unattainable.

The 1% Solution (only 1% of practitioners will reach the goal)is
NOT a solution, to my way of thinking. So instead of muddling about
with esoteric techniques supposedly only possible in a monastic
setting (or on lengthy retreats), an exercise that can be compared
to Nero’s fiddling while Rome burns, I might suggest that all the
amazing spiritual talent displayed here could perhaps be applied to
discovering the very simple methods that I am convinced Mother Light
created that might allow the vast unwashed hordes busy killing,
raping, plundering and basically creating a hell-world out of the
Garden of Gaia to bliss themselves out of whatever nightmare state
is holding them captive.

Nicht Wahr?

Hello-ing A New Friend

Hello, RS!

Just today I discovered your very interesting website via
a posting of a quote from you on the NonDuality Salon (via
ND Highlights) that I immediately saved. It begins:
"For me mystical ecstasy is a feeling and a realization."

It's wonderful to read someone who is not afraid to talk
about 'mystical ecstasy'! And also about what I usually
refer to as 'zero-ing out...' In fact recently I tried to
describe is as a formula:although my math-inclined friends say it’s nonsense.
I describe its meaning as ‘zero-ing out through any number
of the levels that present themselves equals Foreverland.’
Foreverland is a poetic term for Nirvana – I’m constantly
trying to find modern English equivalents for foreign
phrases.

My main interest these days is summed up on this page of my website:

Some might consider me as hopelessly hedonistic,
but I would perhaps change that to ‘hopefully’...
because the only hope I see for our poor planet is
to find easily accessible methods for a larger percentage
of beings to increase their bliss tolerance than the reported
1% that Buddhism ‘enlightens’.

Also, I think the time for ‘secret’ or ‘whispered teachings’
is long past, and all and every possible method should be
shared as widely as possible, including the shaman’s
paths and all the most esoterically held exercises. Frankly,
I think I may have stumbled in my own back-assed
way onto a number of them (tracheal resonance,
blinking to swat thought streams, etc.) but also try to keep
a sense of humor about it all (smile).

Thank you for introducing me to the term ‘apophatic.’
Do you consider it related to the so-called Christian
‘Via Negativa’ and in Hindu, ‘Neti neti?’ I’m somewhat
familiar with these ‘dark night’ experiences, and perhaps
my essay on ‘Light’ you might find of interest:

I don’t consider myself to be part of any particular lineage
or ‘path,’ although I have met many mostly unknown enlightened
teachers, perhaps summed up in this essay.
http://www.raysender.com/volsimp.html

I’m interested to read that you live in the Bay Area. My wife
Judith and I have been happily settled in San Francisco’s Noe
Valley for 24 years. We run a free-admission speakers’ series
at the Noe Valley Ministry on odd-calendar-numbered Mondays.
The series is six years old, and the seventh season will start
this September.

My personal experiences tell me that matter and spirit are
intrinsically one Holon and that our star the Sun is a conscious
entity we might as well refer to as Our Mother Goddess Self. Of
the current crop of teachers, I especially admire Adyashanti,
Master Aziz Kristof in Poone (currently in seclusion), the
Christian contemplative Bernadette Roberts, and my spiritual
friend David Spero. For a sampling of his talks and videos, see www.davidspero.com

Also, I’m continually amazed by Ken Wilber’s ability to inhale
all East and West traditions and map them in marvelous ways. If
I were a 20-yr-old, I’d intern in Boulder for as long as I --
or they -- could stand it. Interesting gathering of folks.

On top of all that, I realize I might just as well continue to
throw all this silly nonsense out the window and just remain
seated, fat and sassy, on Mother’s lap where upwelling gratitude
means downpouring Grace. Go gettum, Sri Sri Ma!

Quote from jax on the DzogchenPractices list:

Dzogchen is the sound your hear that is part of your
world of sensory experience... all sound is the mantra
of Rigpa as it is. The samaya of Dzogchen is simply "to
remain undistracted"...but even that notion is too
dualistic as it implies there is "someone" who should
avoid being "distracted". Rigpa never is distracted
from the state of Rigpa... the "self" does not exist,
as it is only a concept or thought of "me" that arises
from and within Rigpa, and therefore has no volition of
its own to be distracted or not. There does not exist
an entity that get's distracted, who by practicing "non-
distraction" can realize Rigpa. There is "no one" that
realizes Rigpa or Enlightened Awareness. Buddha's main
teaching was "anatman" or absence of self. He said there
is no personal self or individual... that was the whole
liberating realization of the Enlightenment! He also
realized at that same moment that "no one" else exists
either. Hence he states in the Diamond Sutra that there
are no sentient beings to save or liberate. To think so,
he said, would be still suffering from the root delusion,
that there is some "self" entity.

That's the key premise of Dzogchen: there is "no one"
to liberate, and "no one" to attain enlightenment. "Being"
is all there is and Being is who you always are. That
perfection cannot be added to nor diminished. That's why
there is nothing to "practice"! Who would do the practices?
Explain that...

God Can Spot Faked Orgasms

Last night I listened to a teleconference hook-up between Ken Wilber
and Centerpoint's Bill Harris - funny how I like Monroe Institute's
Hemi-Sync CDs but HATE (sorry, your Holiness) Harris's Centerpoint's
competing Holo-Sync as well as what I view as their sales-pitchy
approach. I guess if I was to apply Wilber's 1-2-3 analysis technique
to that feeling, I'd come out seeing this dislike as a projection
from my own shadow. Okay, okay, I'll own it! (smile)
But in general, I found the discussion helpful, the basic idea
being to integrate the four basic fundamental perspectives (interior
and exterior views of the individual and collective: "I, It, We,
They) the three bodies (gross, subtle, causal) and the '1-2-3 of
God or three faces of Spirit (first-person, second-person and third-
person) The chat will be posted in a few days and, if accessible to
all, I'll link it here. It's definitely worth a listen, despite its
being basically a sales pitch for the Integral Life Practice Starter
Kit at the 'reduced price' of $199 (with a few extra goodies).
Searching for the above posting, I ran into Ken's hair-rising
account of his near-death gran mal seizure last December.
Definitely
worth a read!
The guy has an extremely debilitating health problem but,
despite it, is publishing multiple volumes a year. Amazing!

An excerpt from the Cohen-Wilber chat that may/may not apply to a
'devotion' discussion on a non-dual list:

COHEN: But when face to face with God in second person [I-Thou], one's
ego is on the chopping block. Unless an individual lines up with this
absolute dimension of spiritual evolution and transcendence, it won't
really matter what kind of experiences he or she has – the fundamental
narcissistic core will remain untouched. And unless a serious dent is
made in that narcissistic core, I wonder how deep our participation
can really be in the creation of the future. I really wonder whether
we'll be free enough to actually be able to do it, unless at the
deepest level we've been brought to our knees.

WILBER: That's an incredibly profound point. And I think you're right
that if we don’t come to terms with that in some way or another, we're
not going to actually be as free as we can be because, unknowingly we
will be mistaking some remnant of our ego – some remnant of our first-
person perspective that we have now turned into an I - I, an Atman,
a grand pure Vedanta witness – for the Absolute. That's the last refuge
of the ego.

COHEN: Absolutely. And the subtlety in all this is staggering.

WILBER: So you have to say: "Wait a minute: I have to face something
that I completely surrender to. I have to face something greater than
I could ever imagine myself possibly to be." You have to utterly
surrender with devotion and actually want to do it, because second-
person perspective carries a naturally welling-up of infinite Love
and gratitude. So it's not something that can be forced. If you're
forcing it, then it's not really a true transcendental surrender.
You're not truly in love; you're just faking it.

COHEN: That's right.

WILBER: And God can spot faked orgasms.

Faith-Devotion versus Direct Experience

On the list Way-of-Light@yahoogroups.com jax wrote:

I would disagree with Tulku Urgyen on his statements above.
I will argue that we don't need to connect with the com-
passionate power of Buddhas in order to discover our
enlightened Nature. It's irrevelant. And to say that
we have to open ourselves to this connection or there
is no way this buddha nature can help us, is silly.

Thanks, Jax. 'Faith,' I always have felt, sidetracks from direct experience.
I suppose if you're a total beginner, it might be necessary the way a
so-called starter motor is required to turn over the main engine - the
so-called 'donkey engine' (hee-haw!). But in many religions it becomes
a major factor that detracts, leaving us as donkeys and direct experience
in the hands of the priesthoods (donkey drivers). And then we're REALLY
off track!

When our thoughts cease there is only this naked Presence
easily experienced. How does it feel? Observe the stillness as
being one with it, you are It.

Yes!

Without vibrational waves of thought, it feels serene and
spacious. When Being "vibrates" as the creation and energy
of thoughts... that vibration becomes the "experience", no
longer the serene and spacious intrinsic Presence of the
Stillness of Being with all it's infinite qualities.

Yes! Beautiful!

As Buddhas or Being, we "vibrate" or we are still. In the
moment of "Stillness" we must notice the initial primordial
first "vibration" that always spontaneously arises: this is
the Knowingness of Being (yeshe) that we don't notice when
we are "vibrating" various thoughts and energies that fill
our space of Awareness (like static on a radio).

I would only expand that to 'that we USUALLY don't notice when we
are vibrating"... Ultimately, stillness and 'vibration' just occur
as 'essence and expression' ( Tulku Urgyen Rinpoche). And ' the
initial primordial first "vibration" that always spontaneously
arises' is really always there, isn't it, in stillness? Like our
heartbeat, or like nuclear fusion in the core of the 'still' sun...

The first step is to experience the "Stillness" aspect of
our Being in between thoughts. In that Stillness all the
qualities of our Buddha Nature/Being are experienced
spontaneously... flashes of Wisdom as to the true nature of our
Beingness arise in the moments of total and complete stillness.
In reality there really is no total "stillness" as the subtle
energies of the Sambhogakaya are alway arising. These
arisings are called Wisdom (yeshe) and they are the radiance
of our Being. The "stillness" is called the Dharmakaya. In
Dzogchen the pure aspects of the Dharmakaya is called Kadag
or primordially pure essence, i.e. the "stillness". The
pure and spontaneous vibrations or energies that arise from
Kadag is called Lhundrub. In the state of mind as "no-mind"
devoid of the vibrations of coarse thought, this Lhundrub
quality and it's Knowingness (yeshe) flashes forth as actual
experience. That's our first experiences of our authentic
True Nature or Buddha Nature.

Let's start with "essence and expression" as described in Tulku Urgyen
Rinpoche's quote from "The Fourth Dharma of Gampopa" as quoted by roo
in another posting:

We have one mind, but we need to distinguish between its two
aspects; essence and expression. Understand this analogy for
the relationship between these two. Essence is like the sun
shining in the sky. Expression is like its reflection on the
surface of water.

COMMENT: Nice, although I prefer to think of 'Expression' as the sun's
own rays of light.

... Let's call the sun in the sky buddha nature, the unmistaken,
undeluded quality, this essence itself. The reflection of the
sun upon the surface of water is an analogy for our normal
deluded thinking, the expression. Without this sun in the
sky it is impossible for this reflection of the sun to appear.
Although here is actually only one sun, it looks as though
there are two. This is what is called one identity with two
aspects. Essence, buddha nature, is like this sun shining in
the sky. This expression is our thinking, which is compared
to the sun's reflection.

COMMENT:
Let's try to de-Tibetanize jax's excellent post, and also de-metaphorize
Tulku Urgyen's lovely metaphor, assuming, at least for the sake of this
posting, that my basic experience of spirit and matter as being basically
the same is correct:
-=-=-=
Between the arising of one thought and the next exists a view into our True Nature. From this True Nature shines forth spontaneous and effortless emanations and 'understandings' from the innate stillness of their origin (just like the sun and its rays).

Anyone can have this experience.

Everyone 'understands' and emanates in the same manner, and thus IS
HAVING THIS EXPERIENCE. In fact, inasmuch as spirit and matter are the same, there is no need to do anything other than feel how you, as The Solar Being, naturally produce light through your 'release of gravitational energy' as you continue to 'collapse into your core'. In actuality, the 'innate stillness' of your nature is a roaring furnace as your solar being continues to contract from a gas cloud (a 'thought in the mind of the 'galactic mother'?), compacting hydrogen into helium while releasing light particles (love) and neutrinos (consciousness that penetrates everywhere) as a by-product of this.
-=-=-=-=-=
Additional note:
Curiously, the understanding of both neutrinos and consciousness remain unresolved issues for science. Neutrinos, however, seem to oscillate between various states. Here's a quote from 'How Does The Sun Shine?, " a paper published in the Nobel e-Museum,
www.sns.ias.edu/~jnb/Papers/Popular/Nobelmuseum/paper.pdf

In 1998, the Super-Kamiokande team of experimentalists
announced that they had observed oscillations among
atmospheric neutrinos. This finding provided indirect
support for the theoretical suggestion that solar neutrinos
oscillate among different states... we do not yet know
what causes the multiple personality disorder [???] of
solar neutrinos. The answer to this question may provide
a clue to physics beyond the current standard models of
sub-atomic particles....Experiments are underway in Canada,
Italy (three experiments), Japan (two experiments), Russia,
and the United States that are attempting to determine the
cause of the oscillations of solar neutrinos, by finding
out how much they weigh and how they transform from one
type to another. Non-zero neutrino masses may provide a
clue to a still-undiscovered realm of physical theory.

COMMENT: and of course consciousness 'oscillates between various states
and stages,' so there we go! Neat, huh?

Hot Rocking Great-Uncle!

From today's e-mail to a nephew:
I’m up to my usual eccentric adventures, looking into the connection between the rocking forward-and-back motion practiced in Judaism (generally known as 'davenning' but more correctly termed 'shukkeling' -- ‘shuck and jive?') and the same motion used by Islamic students when reading the Q'uran, the leg-humping our Riqui likes to do - the crib-rocking babies do, and also what Dr. Wilhem Reich named the 'orgasm reflex' - a movement of the head and hips forward, back arched, that he felt was an indicator of the 'un-armored' musculature that allows for healthy sex (although the term itself refers to a non-genital-focused, full-body energy release. Add to this why Quakers were named 'Quakers,' and Shakers ‘Shakers,' and you begin to get the picture.

Because of this, I now rock very slightly now when I sit in meditation (and at the computer), in time with my heartbeat, although it also can be done on the exhale. I think there are more and more subtle levels of this movement - it doesn't just have to be the pelvic forward thrust (the 'bump' in the strippers/bellydancers' slang) or that a lot of body workers get into (Reich, Alexander Method, etc). Head forward is easy for me, back arched ditto, but it's unfreezing those hips that's more difficult. I practice in bed before falling asleep.

This is all because I’m still convinced there’s an easy, built-in way to increase everyone’s bliss tolerance that d